I was born in a country built on nepotism 

Stuck in the 4th f’ing century in its anachronism

South to North it amazed me with its fundamentalism 

If I sound harsh, forgive my cynicism 

I was raised surrounded by perfectionism

I was praised in my fountain of illusionism 

This mechanism taught me all the pessimism, existentialism 

I think I need an exorcism 

 

I got Resilience 

What didn't kill me gave me so much experience 

The world can be so hideous 

But it taught me that I got that resilience 

 

Had a cancer diagnosis at 23 

I needed answers WTF was going on with me 

So much anger, confusion I fell for delusions 

Of hell and seclusion, myself as inhuman 

All the drugs, psychosis wasn't far they said 

All the blood, supernovas were inside my head 

Thought doctors were idiots, well I was delirious 

This shit's ignominious

Oblivious

Insidious   

 

I got Resilience 

What didn't kill me gave me so much experience 

The world can be so hideous 

But it taught me that I got that resilience 

 

Paradox: hardship teaches happiness

I care a lot and hard shit made it obvious 

If my pressure drops, tachycardic in my dizziness 

No weariness can get to this assuredness, my diligence 

I didn't know how much l needed to express 

Couldn't let it go, the crutch of having to suppress 

My openness

Fastidious

So serious 

Insidious 

Obedience really hits 

I got resilience

 

I got Resilience 

What didn't kill me gave me so much experience 

The world can be so hideous 

But it taught me that I got that resilience